Why do i even bother?

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Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you 
Say something, I'm giving up on you

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Well, I've got open eyes,
And an open door,
But I don't know what I'm searching for.
I should know by now.

Well, I've a big old heart,
This I know for sure,
But I don't know what my love is for.
I should know by now.

Well, I'll wait in line,
So I can wait some more,
'Till I can't remember what I came here for,
But I can't leave now,
Cause I've a light that shines,
And a love so pure,
But I don't know what to use them for.

I should know by now.

Well it's hard to find a reason, when all you have is doubts,
Hard to see inside yourself when can't see your way out,
Hard to find an answer when the question won't come out.

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Real loneliness is not necessarily limited to when you are alone.

Meraki

- To do something with soul, creativity, or love; to but something of yourself into your work.

.Thank You, Charles Bukowski!

.

“I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again.”

― Charles Bukowski